To my husband, Ben who is my Rock
To those of you who see me, I love you with all my Heart. To my childhood family and friends, who no longer approve of what I am doing and have expressed your disappointment in me; I love you just the same. For the first time in my life, I am free of all judgment. And what a wonderful way this is to be! For those of you who were taught to be afraid of this place, to hesitate because you think it is too difficult to get here, or (my "old" personal favorite) to think, "How could I possibly be worthy of all this?" don't believe any of it. None of it is true. The way to freedom and inner peace is easy, and it is everyone's birthright. My journey doesn't begin in some exotic place such as the mountains of Peru or a temple in Tibet or India. To be honest, western Pennsylvania is not known for its magical waterfalls or ancient sacred sites. Yet here in my own backyard, among the open fields and forests surrounding Safe Harbor, I uncover the secrets of my psychic memory. The truth arises through a smile from the eyes of a loved one, a moment shared in song, the quiet of the morning, and the rain on the roof in the middle of the night. These moments are my music. Herein, I encounter an awakening of my spiritual identity. And as Spirit rests a gentle but firm hand on my head and calls me inward, I learn to see that I am one with all things: the maple trees in the eastern field that I call the "Ambassadors," a feather and a rainbow, the sun and the hawk, the blossoms in the meadows, and the people whose paths cross mine. Life's precious experiences guide me to fully open my heart. All that is required is my willingness and my gratitude. There is no need for me to bore you to death with my whole story. So, I'll leave out all the tears and panic attacks, the fear, the worry and the hurt feelings. Basically, I'm going to leave out everything that was never actually real in the first place, in order to tell you the truth of who I really am. Therefore, I have chosen to share my visions with you. Some of these visions emerged in the stillness of solitude or meditation, while others surfaced during energy sessions. Each one is a truthful account of my spiritual awakening, which has unfolded throughout my lifetime. Now that I look back on it all with open eyes, now that I am willing to tell the truth, I was always awake. I just wasn't aware until Now! This is my offering. May you also be inspired to travel this journey Home. Come and join me. Across the landscape of my soul, I welcome you.
My first experience was when I was five-years-old. I had minor surgery to have my tonsils removed. During the surgery, I left my body and observed the entire process from a spot near the ceiling where I was floating. I even heard the conversations exchanged between the doctor and the nurses. Afterwards, I shared what had happened with my mother, an aunt and the nurse. They all said that I must have dreamed it, but even at that age, I knew it wasn't anything like a normal dream. When they left my bedside a few minutes later, I heard the nurse whisper to my mother, "How did she know exactly what we were talking about?" From that point forward, I instinctively knew that I couldn't quite trust anything adults were saying to me and began to question everything! My earliest visions were always similar in nature. My Guardian Angel would stand at the foot of my bed and watch over me. My Angel was a soft blue-white Light with a gentle Heart. She always appeared when I was worried about something that was happening in my family. When I saw her, I always felt protected, and I would immediately fall asleep. I was never frightened by her presence though I did learn at a very early age that it wasn't safe to speak about her. Except for my Grandmother, who was also a healer by nature, I never shared these visitations with anyone. As a child, I also saw Auras, but it wasn't until I was a young adult that I realized that this 'gift' was anything special or out of the ordinary. Finally, there was a period of time during my adolescence when I would hear voices. At the time, I remember that I found it annoying. One night, I just told them to be quiet and go away. They immediately complied, and after that, they left me alone.
March 12, 1995
This vision occurred while I was in meditation. I found myself at the iron gate of an old abbey. The gate was locked, and I didn't have a key, so I rang the bell that was hanging on a nearby post. A woman came. She was older and dressed in black robes. She opened the gate, and I followed her into a stone cottage. There was a table in the middle of the room, and on the table were large woven baskets. She gave me two and took two for herself. Then, she silently motioned for me to follow her. She never spoke a word. We went up a hillside, passing a grassy meadow to an old orchard. There were plums, apricots and peaches ripening on the trees and falling to the earth. We filled the baskets until they were heavy with fruit and returned to the cottage. We set the baskets on the table, and before I could turn my head, the woman was gone, and the door to the cottage was closed. Quite confused, I stood in the middle of the room and looked around. All four walls were built of thick slabs of stone. At once, the room began to shake so hard that I thought an earthquake had hit. The baskets had tipped over, and there was fruit all over the floor. Suddenly, a huge crack appeared in the wall and right before my eyes, two huge jaws of teeth came out of the wall, scooped me in, and proceeded to devour me. I felt as though every cell in my body was disintegrating. I kept screaming, "Jesus, please help me," But the pain didn't stop. Instead, I was pulled into a deep, dark tunnel. I really thought I was going to die as I fell further into this vortex of nothingness. At last and to my great relief, my body was catapulted, full force out of the tunnel and into spaciousness. I was aware that I was completely naked, curled up in fetal position and floating all alone in the middle of nowhere. Billions of stars surrounded me. Yet, what struck me the most was the silence. It was a stillness that was so rich and pure and beautiful and alive!
May 25, 2004
I am up at dawn. The sunrise in the East is spectacular! Everything feels so different to me since my healing session yesterday. The leaves in the trees, the clouds in the sky, everything seems to sparkle and shimmer. I feel aware of every sound, taste and smell. My center is strong, as my faith is unwavering. I thank John for facilitating this healing session and for being a part of this important shift in my spiritual growth. I will never forget this moment. During my session, Sammen guided me through my life. He held my right hand and led me across a rainbow bridge. There was water all around us. Many people were drowning, and I wanted to pull them all to safety. I could feel my tears flow. I saw my childhood in this lifetime. How happy I was! I saw myself at the age of two, rolling down a long, green grassy hill until I reached the bottom and stood up, dizzy and laughing with the entire world spinning around me. I saw my beautiful grandmother, Emily Ofiesh, and I knew she is by my side on this journey, even though she is no longer on this Earth plane in physical form. When I became a philosophy major in college, my grandmother was the only member of my family that truly understood and supported this decision. At the time, she told me that I came from a long line of poets, priests and philosophers and that I had made the right decision with my studies. Then, she gave me a bundle of books and said that her second cousin had written them - it was The Prophet and other books by Khalil Gibran. This is all a true memory. During the session, she showed me my ancestry, generation after generation to the beginning of time. I saw that I was a part of so much history. I was an extension of this birthright, continuing her legacy forward into this new day, this wonderful new time. I saw my first healing guide, Zara. Her hands of rubies became my hands, glowing with streams of light. Next, I saw my childhood family and friends, and I offered them all my forgiveness and love. Then, I saw one of my totems, the Lion. I was in a lair. It was a cave, hidden deep in an ancient mountain of steep rock and cliffs. I became the Lion and saw that my power is not in defending myself or in attacking others. Rather, all my power is simply in being the Lion - just in being, not in doing. It gave me a tremendous sense of inner peace to know that I can just be myself on my path without questioning, and to own this with my full commitment and solid, unwavering faith. Finally, I saw my healer as John the Baptist, washing away the pain of my past, allowing this new day to begin.
Note: Sammen was my spiritual Grandfather, guide and teacher from 2002-2005.
August 23, 2004
During meditation, I saw two large pyramids of color and light that met at my heart chakra. One pyramid was blue and pointed downward. The other pyramid was red and pointed upward. At the center points where they almost touched one another was a pure white sphere of light. It was truly awesome to behold. The energy poured from the white sphere, through all of my chakras, then rushed in waves across my auric field. The next day during a healing session that I was facilitating, I saw red energy pour from my right hand and blue energy pour from my left hand. Between my hands was a globe of pure white light. The most lasting impression of the experience was that this white globe is a Love so pure, that nothing is diminished, and All is enhanced.
December 28, 2004
I had a beautiful out of body experience earlier today while meditating. I just floated up into the sky, rising higher and higher. The clouds parted, and I was in the sunshine. I remember that it was sooooooo warm. I experienced no resistance. Instead, I just relaxed and went along for the ride.
January 7, 2005
During this healing session, I saw Sammen. He took my hand, and we walked together across a bridge of rainbow light. This "event" has happened several times in the past, but the image has always ended on the center of the rainbow. This time, he showed me what was on the other side. It was such an incredibly beautiful place. Rocks and very old trees surrounded a forest glen. Waterfalls of pure, white light cascaded from the sky into a pool before us. Sammen told me that this space belonged to me and that I could go there anytime I wanted to because now I knew the way. Then, I was lying on the table again. I saw one of the waterfalls from "my place" come up through the floor into my solar plexus chakra. It flowed from my center and spilled out over my entire being. The water, flowing from my center, formed a river of blue light. Next, I saw three small round stones that formed a triangle. The stones began to spin around and around as the stream of water carried them away. Suddenly, I saw everyone I have ever met in this lifetime. I saw one face after another. They flashed before me very quickly. I sent pure love to each of them. Ben was the last person I saw. We embraced for such a long moment that it seemed like forever. Then, I gave him all my love. Next, I saw two small children, a boy and a girl, playing in an incredibly big, open meadow. Everything was so green! The two children were jumping and spinning and running about. They were best of friends, just being in the moment, experiencing such joy and bliss. At once, I was aware of a shaft of brilliant amethyst light poured down into my third eye. I saw Jesus the Christ. The perfect image of his face was right there before me like a mirror. I opened my eyes, and He showed me my true Self as pure Love.
February 8, 2005
I was lying on the healing table when I saw Eagle spirit. He perched on my chest and looked me right in the eyes. He saw me, so deeply. I felt entirely exposed. Then, Eagle spirit said, "Are you ready to go to the next level?" I responded that I was not worthy. Instantly, I saw all my crap, including my impatience, which has always a big trap for me. I also saw my worry that I feel from time to time. It arises as a remnant of a childhood fear of being abandoned and left alone. And then, I saw it was all a complete illusion. Suddenly, Eagle spirit pecked at my face, arms and legs. He pulled at my flesh until it was all ripped away. I felt so many emotions, like I was laughing and crying at the same time. Then, I was simply Light, a pure globe of white light. My outer self was like crystal, completely transparent. I heard a voice say; "Now you will shine brightly enough so that everyone I send to you will find their way by your Light." I knew it was the voice of Spirit. Next, I saw myself from high above. I could see the entire country as if looking down on a topographical map of the United States. I saw myself on the map as pure Light. I glowed and shimmered as a sphere of brightness that completely covered the states surrounding the Great Lake region. From there, it rippled ever outward in circular spheres, like waves of sound.
March 25, 2005
As soon as the healing began, I felt an intense pressure just below my sacral chakra. I could see blood flow from deep within my womb. It just poured out of me. I was also aware that tears were running down my cheeks, but it didn't feel as though they were my tears. Instead, I felt as though I had tapped into a pool of suffering from deep within the planet, and I allowed it to flow through me to be released and healed. This continued until there was only stillness. I had no thoughts, no visions. I simply experienced inner peace. It was so wonderful. Then, I saw Ramana's face. Ramana Maharshi has the most incredible eyes. Next, I saw Ben's face. I experienced so much Love. I thought if I could remember to see Ben and Ramana in everyone, I could love everyone like this! I felt more tears flow down my cheeks. They felt so warm, and I remember feeling so safe. Then, all was quiet again. It felt like it took a long time before all the feeling returned to my body. After awhile, I could move my hands, but not my legs. I felt planted, rooted in something very ancient and safe. What gratitude!
Note: Ramana Maharshi was a great Hindu saint, who guided his followers to inquire, "Who Am I?"
April 14, 2005
This afternoon, I was alone, listening to Krishna Das and reading Ramana's book. I came upon a passage about seeing God in everyone. It reminded me of my last healing session when I envisioned Ramana during the healing, and he pointed to this wisdom as the key to being more compassionate. Ramana wrote that seeing God in everyone is also a pathway to enlightenment. Suddenly, I experienced both moments simultaneously. One "I" was reading the passage, the other "I" was on the healing table. Both moments were one! Immediately, the book fell from my hands. Then, the back of my head just below my crown chakra opened completely. I was pulled backwards into silence and Light! The quiet was endlessly peaceful and total Bliss. After what seemed like forever, a single thought passed like a wave in front of me. As soon as I felt myself, lean forward into the thought, I silently heard Ramana's voice asking, "Who is thinking the thought?" And I was immediately pulled back into the Silence of Self. Again, it seemingly lasted forever. There was neither time nor space. All that remained was an emptiness filled with peace. Then, a third time, the same thing happened again. When I finally opened my eyes, I was staring into Ramana's face on the book cover! And my face was soaked with tears.
May 24, 2005
I was on the healing table. In this vision, I was wearing a soft, gray wool dress and a dark, blue and violet satin robe. My hair was long and dark, and it flowed over my shoulders. I wore a crown of violet flowers. At the center of each flower flowed a ray of pure, white light that shimmered and sparkled throughout my hair. My face was so bright that it radiated energy. My eyes were filled with wisdom and compassion.. My cheeks were so red they glowed. I felt myself become one with the Earth plane. I saw all the pain and suffering from across the world. At first, I wanted to heal all of it, but I consciously chose to let go of that thought. I opened my eyes, and the ceiling disappeared. Suddenly, I was out in the open, and I could see forever. The sky was filled with stars. And the stars were all the hopes and dreams for our planet, guiding us and watching over us. It was very beautiful. Then, I felt two hands on my heart. Healing energy flowed from the hands into my heart. At the same time, healing energy flowed from my heart into the two hands. It was all one and the same, just like the currents of energy, flowing in and out, between the Earth and the Universe were also one and the same.
June 3, 2005
I was gazing into the eyes of Christ, pure consciousness that was both all seeing and all knowing. I saw myself as the perfect reflection of Him light. I felt such peace and stillness! I was completely open. I had nothing to fear. Then, two wings of light began to grow from my shoulder blades. The wings covered my back and arms. The light shimmered in rays of all the chakra colors. I felt so light. I was completely out of body. During the entire vision, I heard all of Tolle's words, and everything that he said resonated so deeply within my soul.
I had this vision during an Eckhart Tolle study group that I facilitate. Tolle is one of the most important spiritual teachers of our time. His book, The Power of Now is the perfect map for the journey Home.
July 20, 2005
My intention for this next healing was to discover trust. And talk about going within! Wow, did I ever have a good look! I saw all of my personal garbage, exposed right before my eyes! It all began so innocently, or so I told myself. Someone asked me to do something, and I said "yes" when I wanted to say "no." I won't mention my "good" intentions! We all know what a story that is! Minutes into the healing, I took full responsibility. The truth remained raw and exposed: I was trying to please others. This was the trap that caught me every time. The biggest betrayal was the single moment when time stood still, and All-Knowing revealed itself, and I allowed that opportunity to pass right by because I wasn't even paying attention! During the healing, I scraped it all away. I felt like vomiting at one point because it was so gross, but I looked at it all with my eyes wide open! And the darkness folded away, and the new Light was so sweet and honest and real. I can laugh at myself now, and it always does feel so good to just lighten up!
December 13, 2005
Again on the healing table, I experienced such stillness. My heart chakra opened so wide and became a pool of white light. Jesus was present. His face was so serene; his eyes were pools of Love. I felt so safe and at Home with his being. His essence went so deep, and I just went into that. I saw a road ahead, and Jesus took my hand and invited me to walk with him. I accepted without any hesitation. Spontaneously, our bodies merged and became One. I felt such peace, like nothing I had ever experienced before. So now, the Way forward is simply to walk the path of forgiveness and love. I am to be loving. I need do nothing else. I feel so quiet inside. This treasure is such a simple sweetness!
January 28, 2006
I had the most beautiful vision before I fell asleep. Jesus came to me. He had these long, clear quartz crystal points. Each one was almost a foot long and over an inch across. He placed a crystal in each of my chakras. Then, I saw each crystal take on the color of the chakra and glow brightly with that light frequency. When one would begin to dim, he would pull it out and toss it to the side on the floor and place a new crystal into that chakra. This went on and on, as I remained very open and accepting the entire time. I was at peace. I was free of all judgment and thought.
February 2, 2006
In this healing, I immediately saw my entire spiritual body as a large pool of white light. I was very still and open. I felt absolutely no fear. I saw faces yelling at me. Many faces were of people I knew from my past or from my childhood, but some of the faces were total strangers. I saw their hurtful words come flying by me. Then people threw rocks, stones, even garbage into my pool of light. I watched it all completely without judgment. At one point, I understood Ramana's experience as a young man. When other boys threw stones at him, he continued his meditation without response. I was also aware that the light in my pool never stirred. Not even a ripple formed, but the barrage continued... Then, I felt such Love. I can't describe it, so I won't even try. Suffice it to say that it was a wondrous Love that can heal anything. I saw my Aura open even wider. The energy flow continued on and on forever... it was... IS such sweetness! Like music, I heard the words of Nisargadatta Maharaj: "When I know I am nothing, that is wisdom. When I know I am everything, that is Love." I heard these lines over and over again. It played like a mantra in the deepest core of my Being until the session was over.
Nisargadatta Maharaj wrote I AM THAT,
a book that will blow away all of your preconceived ideas and beliefs!
March 7, 2006
Right from the start of this healing session, I knew I still had to confront some leftover issues concerning my self-betrayal even though it didn't feel so important at that moment. But left unexplored, the residue would just come up again. Anyway, I knew it was a safe space to do the work, so I moved forward with my intention to experience this complete forgiveness of self. I was immediately aware that the root of all my self-betrayal was a fear of being left alone and abandoned. So, I went into that fear and investigated it fully. I saw myself completely alone in the night. I was outside, and the ground was covered with a thick blanket of new snow. It was bitter cold, and the wind was blowing. I walked by some people, but no one acknowledged me. I remember thinking; "I still have people who love me." Then, I said to myself, "No, go deeper. Experience what it would feel like to have no one love me." So, I did. Next, I was lying in the snow, and I saw a pack of wolves, tearing at my flesh. Ironically, I heard a crow outside the healing room just when this was happening, and I thought openly and completely without judgment, "Yes, the crow will take from me whatever the wolf leaves behind." Then, I had no form, but I was still aware of my presence. I looked into the sky and saw so many stars, and I thought, "Well, I still have the stars to comfort me." But then, they disappeared too, and the night was pitch black! But I was still so incredibly aware of my Being, perhaps more so than I have ever been before. I was in that space of silence and nothingness. Then, I heard a voice boom, "Open your eyes and see the Light of God!!!" I literally opened my eyes and saw a Light so bright it blinded me. I immediately closed my eyes, but I could still see this blinding white Light even with my eyes closed. Then, the same voice quietly and gently reminded me that all I have to do is be my most perfect reflection of that Light! Suddenly, Light poured from my palms and flowed in streams from my fingertips, from each of my chakras, from my eyes, ears, and the bottoms of my feet. This most lovely and pure Light just flowed in every direction, filling the room. It was so amazing and beautiful. Truly, words cannot go there! I tried to say, "Can you see the Light?" But no words would come from my mouth. I was speechless, and I literally could not move my lips. Even when the healing was over, I still could not speak.
April 12, 2006
Before my healing, I was reading this by Nisargadatta: "When you realize that you are the light of the world, you will also realize that you are the love of it; that to know is to love and to love is to know." Then on the healing table, I experienced a love so big that my heart broke wide open, right down the middle. I simply couldn't contain the experience... it was so expansive and so huge that I was moved to tears.
May 17, 2006
During this vision, I saw hundreds of snakes, all different species, colors and patterns. They were all spirally and wrapping themselves around my ankles and legs and arms. Then, the snakes were in my internal organs, then deeply into my chakras. I immediately connected their appearance to an encounter I had with a black snake on the walking path here at Safe Harbor. I also knew that the snakes were a symbol of transformation, rebirth and renewal. Plus, they represented the manifestation of my last annual wisdom quest, which held a lot of spiraling energy in the guidance. It made sense to me that these events would converge in time because the day before was an '11' in numerology, which was also the number of my personal life cycle for the year. Throughout the entire vision, I experienced no fear. Moreover, none of the snakes bit me or hurt me in any way. Then, the snakes turned to brilliant colors of light. They were translucent and glowing... well, words fall short here! Just imagine what hundreds of glowing spirals of color would look like! Next, a shaft of pure white Light (once again, words fall way short!) poured directly into my heart chakra. This shaft was shaped like a crystal point as it had definite sides to it, and it was easily 30" across spatially (that's the depth of its greatest intensity) though it filled the room with its glow. The length was infinite. Truly, I sensed the shaft of light extended to the center of the Universe and beyond. At this point, I received clear guidance that I had caught the attention of powerful spiritual Beings beyond the Earth plane and that I was being closely observed. I also intuited that I was being asked to make an even deeper commitment to my spiritual path. I immediately agreed and knew that the support would be there and that new doors would open to facilitate my efforts. I was also aware that the work itself would require complete trust, vigilance, consistency and focus on my part.
July 19, 2006
At the beginning of this vision, I was standing in the middle of an arched, wooden bridge that spanned a small creek, feeding into a larger stream. A swirling rose-pink mist began to rise from the water. The mist ascended around our feet and continued to expand until it was all around us. Then, I saw Jesus, standing before me. I followed Him with the knowledge that I was chosen. The experience felt so humbling, and I could feel the hottest tears, flowing down my cheeks. Then, nothing... I have no idea where we went or what happened after that! I didn't move for the longest time after the healing. No thoughts, no mind… all that existed was spaciousness. After the vision ended, I felt such peace, and I was filled with complete gratitude and quiet stillness.
September 27, 2006
During this healing, I experienced my death*. Right from the start, I was aware that another Being was in the room, directing energy into my auric field, but I had no idea who he was! At one point, I saw a long silver-blue sword. The blade was about 6 feet in length with a sharp edge of 4" across above the point. Instantly, the sword pierced my auric field, directly above the solar plexus chakra. I was not afraid, and I felt no pain, but I was aware that my soul shuddered. Then, I was dead... completely gone! I got so cold... icy cold... Even after the healing was over, I felt cold off and on for several days…
*I am speaking of death in the metaphysical sense of the word. Through our willingness to go beyond fear and experience the death of the ego-self, we open the gateway to liberation. What remains is Love!
November 2, 2006
This vision involves another healing in which I experienced my own death. Once again, I felt cold but not nearly as intensely as I had in the previous healing. It was a powerful moment when I completely left my body. Immediately, Ramana Maharshi appeared, standing right in front of me. He asked me what I wanted, and without hesitation, I said that I wanted to see the world just like he sees it! First, I saw all the suffering on the planet, and I felt my eyes swell with tears. Then, I recognized that the suffering did not belong to me. It didn't belong to anyone. Even more important, I understood that the suffering wasn't real, that it was an illusion. With this realization came such peace. And my heart just broke wide open, and I saw the entire Universe within my own heart. I saw all the galaxies, the planets, the stars, all the spaciousness. It was all One, and it wasn't outside of me. Everything was happening inside of me. At that moment, I felt such incredible bliss.
This is what I wrote not long after this healing session:
"Right now, I have everything I need in my own Heart, and I am so grateful to know this."
December 5, 2006
I saw Maharajji. He was laughing. At once, his eyes became intensely serious and pierced right through to the core of my being. I felt completely vulnerable and exposed. Then, I saw my body form the points of the Enneagram… the 9 point of Love, Immortal Being and Awareness lie at my crown chakra. One by one, each point caught on fire and began to burn. Soon, my entire auric field was aflame. I saw the flames fill the room until the entire house was on fire. I saw myself burn in the fire of Maya/Illusion. I saw Maharajji. He was laughing. Next, I saw myself as newly tilled earth, mud and soil. Like rain, lotus seeds fell from the sky onto my auric field, and thousands of flowers sprung upon my being… unfolding in a meadow of pure Love… I saw Maharajji. He was laughing. I felt a powerful knocking on my crown chakra. And I saw Maharajji. He was laughing. Hours pass, and I continue to feel a strong vibratory current, buzzing at my crown and third eye chakras.
Note: I first heard of Sri Neem Karoli Baba Maharajji when I read Be Here Now by Ram Dass in 1975.
This is my first encounter with Maharajji's Being.
May 18, 2007
I saw myself dissolve into an infinite sphere of white Light. The Light itself had no cares or worries. Actually, it felt very liberating to be so open! I also sensed that this Light required no energy... there was an ease in simply being. Then, each particle of this One Light separated once again and scattered like the ripened florets of a dandelion into the winds of space. Some of the light particles were seeded into new forms while others continued to move about freely. And like the humble dandelion, there was no concern on my part where my seeds went; rather, it was a complete and unconditional offering. I was also aware that nothing is lost, for all the wisdom that we gain while in form continues and grows from the new seeds we sow throughout the Universe. Likewise, our mistakes are simply forgotten as part of the learning experience. And at the same time, we are continuously receiving the seeds from other more enlightened Beings. The exchange itself creates a dance which ripples and glows with such perfect love and beauty.
Note: I had this very simple, yet moving vision in the afternoon while I was meditating. Perhaps; it came up because so many people in my groups were asking about what happens to the me/ego/personality when we become enlightened and the 'little I' no longer exists as a separate identity?
July 1, 2008
I experienced a major break through while meditating – went all the way. I saw all form and duality as part of a living, multi-dimensional Mandala… perfect order. The colors of the Mandala were beyond belief. I hesitated for a moment then saw the hand of Jesus reach out and take my hand – then, it was a gentle slipping through. I left my body completely behind and entered a light that burst forth from the center of the Mandala… then, everything else became a reflection of That… I have been chanting ever since… even in my sleep. I wake up in the morning with 'Om Gurudeva, Namo Gurudeva, Jaya Jaya Gurudeva' singing in my head. It never stops… even now, I hear it…
December 4, 2009
I had a very powerful vision during my meditation this afternoon. Ramana Maharshi was standing before me. He moved his hand across my brow, leaving a white line on my forehead that was 4" across and almost 2" wide (I have seen similar markings in photographs). As he was doing this, I saw a bright white light and experienced absolute serenity and joy that continues still. . .
"The white mark is the sign of Lord Shiva - this is what he placed upon your brow. Most auspicious indeed! You are truly blest with this darshan dream from our Great Master." -Alan Jacobs, President Ramana Maharshi Foundation United Kingdom "As far as I know the mark on the brow is ashes that signify that the ego shall be absolved. All three aspects; the gunas the trimurti shall become as ashes. You are really asking to be swallowed by the divine when you are putting ashes on your forehead. That is how I understand it and your description is very alive! I can see Bhagavan rubbing the ashes on your head when reading this. This is BLESSING. A Sattvic mind can only experience such a beautiful thing." -Marco Mazzella
Love blessings from the Heart ~ Cathy Ginter
"You have been walking the ocean's edge holding up your robes to keep them dry.
You must dive deeper under, a thousand times deeper." -Rumi